8:50 PM;
EMOSHIT.
this is the fucking worse failure all time since ive been here. even the lousiest surprises positively sometimes and yet one of the most stable can do fatal damage like this. wtf was i thinking, like it really helps thinking about it, right. just become more fucking emo about it and wondering if i'm phasing out. F ing no man, did I not believe enough tt it was possible to be up there?
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matt 10:32-33
6:08 PM;
back to life, back to reality;
one thing i'll never be able to understand is how anyone ever falls asleep on a plane seat (talking about economy here). d.i.s.a.s.t.e.r. the flight back was sooooo tiring, not forgetting also tt the weather in melb was much colder than it was predicted. it pelted ice cubes on at least 5 occasions in the very short day tt i was around. skipped DA, made it to chem, but was hardly productive. my eyelids felt like 20kg weights. i just couldnt stop wanting to sleep the entire day. right now im just mulling over my unfinished econs essay tt is due v.v.v soon (think 2 days later) and the tut tt makes things so complicated.
it feels like a whole new semester, feels like i can take it slow and integrate and warm myself up to all the printing nonsense, getting out of bed, going through the routine till...i realise, no man, it aint it. in fact, you really go one corner and the exams are IN YOUR FACE. sigh. oh have i mentioned that this certain paper ends on the last day of all uni exams? be thankful it aint the afternn paper, yeah right.
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Spiritual gifts edifies God, spiritual gifts understood edifies the church.
8:23 PM;
globalisation indeed.
more often than not, people are not who they appear to be. those u least expect to swim in stride in murky waters emerge on the other side to holster you up. yet those who once professed to be best friends end up..floating in a circle around you, but never with you. tragic, yet so pathetically unpitiful.
watch where the curb is going, it might hit you. turn where you can or cannot see, there are ears following you. stop whatever the situation, you've never thought cleverly enough.
--
a happier mind breeds a lively heart <3
12:33 PM;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE KUAN YEW
white haired and old, but he is the bomb. whoever said "(LKY) is revered as a mythic figure by elder Singaporeans but to the younger generations, he is a familiar but mysterious relic whose accomplishments they take for granted" is an idiot in his/her own rights. the person obviously thinks that everyone has to have been through WWII to be grateful for sg. whoever said that personal appreciations and love must be announced to the world.
haha that a tat too drama eh. on a grimer note, my brain is off-season psychology mode, refusing to come up with logical phrases that I know I'm definitely capable of. used to think a 1000 was too little to cover a topic but now even a 100 is causing the little men in my head to go topsy-turvee. even my lappie is tired, hanging and running programs that arent even running. Seriously though, Spring and Winter are at war! Spring is here but the cold winter winds are fighting to stay. >100kmph, swept off my feet i'd say!
due dates & sg!
7:06 PM;
Dealing with the aftermath;
My recent addiction of lemon crisps fingers has found its way back to haunt me. Think midnight sore throat, waking up with that all so familiar nasal/throat discomfort you know damn right you're gonna be sick. Yup that's me, think I got it coming, fo' real.
Guesssss what? The mid of the semester is almost finished, and I'm just about finished too. Lagging behind far more than for my own good. Assignments and all. time soon for the well deserved term break. Well okay, not exactly well deserved but let's just say I need it to mend my socks!
I'm so tired right now I could sleep forever.
3:07 PM;
And so again it Haunts
--
It’s in this wake that I find myself
Losing the will to resume this Hell
When every breath is a dying wish
It’s harder to follow the point of this
This broken place that I call my home
Has deepened the sorrow that I have sown
And I can’t erase what is in my heart
I want it to finish before it starts
My own solution insufficient again
No false illusion, this devouring threat
I break the vessel, giving air to its red
And open my fate to the darkened sky
I’ve been fading away
I’ve been waiting on the call to reach my veins
Ready or not
No attention to waste
Every sorrow of the soul will read my name
When I cease to exist
So now I’ve come to the final sleep
I pray that forgiveness is mine to keep
I know it’s hard to forget this man
Driving the failure into your hands
raft up; starky.
raft up; starky.
raft up; starky.
raft up; starky.
raft up; starky.
raft up; starky.
raft up; starky.
EMOSHIT.
this is the fucking worse failure all time since ive been here. even the lousiest surprises positively sometimes and yet one of the most stable can do fatal damage like this. wtf was i thinking, like it really helps thinking about it, right. just become more fucking emo about it and wondering if i'm phasing out. F ing no man, did I not believe enough tt it was possible to be up there?
-
matt 10:32-33
x 8:50 PM
back to life, back to reality;
one thing i'll never be able to understand is how anyone ever falls asleep on a plane seat (talking about economy here). d.i.s.a.s.t.e.r. the flight back was sooooo tiring, not forgetting also tt the weather in melb was much colder than it was predicted. it pelted ice cubes on at least 5 occasions in the very short day tt i was around. skipped DA, made it to chem, but was hardly productive. my eyelids felt like 20kg weights. i just couldnt stop wanting to sleep the entire day. right now im just mulling over my unfinished econs essay tt is due v.v.v soon (think 2 days later) and the tut tt makes things so complicated.
it feels like a whole new semester, feels like i can take it slow and integrate and warm myself up to all the printing nonsense, getting out of bed, going through the routine till...i realise, no man, it aint it. in fact, you really go one corner and the exams are IN YOUR FACE. sigh. oh have i mentioned that this certain paper ends on the last day of all uni exams? be thankful it aint the afternn paper, yeah right.
--
Spiritual gifts edifies God, spiritual gifts understood edifies the church.
x 6:08 PM
globalisation indeed.
more often than not, people are not who they appear to be. those u least expect to swim in stride in murky waters emerge on the other side to holster you up. yet those who once professed to be best friends end up..floating in a circle around you, but never with you. tragic, yet so pathetically unpitiful.
watch where the curb is going, it might hit you. turn where you can or cannot see, there are ears following you. stop whatever the situation, you've never thought cleverly enough.
--
a happier mind breeds a lively heart <3
x 8:23 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE KUAN YEW
white haired and old, but he is the bomb. whoever said "(LKY) is revered as a mythic figure by elder Singaporeans but to the younger generations, he is a familiar but mysterious relic whose accomplishments they take for granted" is an idiot in his/her own rights. the person obviously thinks that everyone has to have been through WWII to be grateful for sg. whoever said that personal appreciations and love must be announced to the world.
haha that a tat too drama eh. on a grimer note, my brain is off-season psychology mode, refusing to come up with logical phrases that I know I'm definitely capable of. used to think a 1000 was too little to cover a topic but now even a 100 is causing the little men in my head to go topsy-turvee. even my lappie is tired, hanging and running programs that arent even running. Seriously though, Spring and Winter are at war! Spring is here but the cold winter winds are fighting to stay. >100kmph, swept off my feet i'd say!
due dates & sg!
x 12:33 PM
Dealing with the aftermath;
My recent addiction of lemon crisps fingers has found its way back to haunt me. Think midnight sore throat, waking up with that all so familiar nasal/throat discomfort you know damn right you're gonna be sick. Yup that's me, think I got it coming, fo' real.
Guesssss what? The mid of the semester is almost finished, and I'm just about finished too. Lagging behind far more than for my own good. Assignments and all. time soon for the well deserved term break. Well okay, not exactly well deserved but let's just say I need it to mend my socks!
I'm so tired right now I could sleep forever.
x 7:06 PM
And so again it Haunts
--
It’s in this wake that I find myself
Losing the will to resume this Hell
When every breath is a dying wish
It’s harder to follow the point of this
This broken place that I call my home
Has deepened the sorrow that I have sown
And I can’t erase what is in my heart
I want it to finish before it starts
My own solution insufficient again
No false illusion, this devouring threat
I break the vessel, giving air to its red
And open my fate to the darkened sky
I’ve been fading away
I’ve been waiting on the call to reach my veins
Ready or not
No attention to waste
Every sorrow of the soul will read my name
When I cease to exist
So now I’ve come to the final sleep
I pray that forgiveness is mine to keep
I know it’s hard to forget this man
Driving the failure into your hands
x 3:07 PM